My Journey to the American Dream

So today was my opportunity to you know, live that American Dream..or at least work towards that dream anyway. If you didn't know what my ultimate goal for my career existence besides making a change and being a great influence for fellow earthlings..lol I want to do Sports Broadcasting (on-air). Many reasons why I'd like to, but simply put .. I love to talk about Sports and I love the game and the notion of Sports.

Well today was the Pac-10 Media Day for Men's College Basketball where it was simply the coaches and top players from the Pac-10 conference answering questions and hyping up what shall take place for the upcoming season. So, when you do stand-ups, you need a great background (atmosphere), have a quick outro if you will that pretty much summarizes the days events for what you could attach to a package (a.k.a a story). The media day took place at the Hilton close to LAX. Long story short, I went to this media day straight after doing an 8-hour shift of 2am to 10am - not like that's excuseable because I knew I was going to the shoot as of yesterday [late afternoon/night]. So I do my stand-up that I can use for my reel, put together a potential package (for my reel), and overall have it critiqued by my trusted, awesome sports producers, whom I love dearly.

I get in front of the camera with that stellar nbc flag (the box on the mic) and that mic...lights from the camera go on, lol and JAM is like a deer caught in some headlights jibber-jabbing. Mind you, I had an idea of what I wanted to say, upgraded the outfit game, but was lagging on the hair and make-up which already made me look lame...but whatever, it's practice, right?
EEERGH, soo wrong..so wrong. I should have never treated it as practice, I should have looked as if I already had the gig and should have written and been more prepared. I should have been looking like the dun-dada in the building. So needless to say, I looked like a goofy goober flubbing over what was suppose to be a quick stand-up while Jim Hill (CBS sports - that I just realized at the end of this blog that Pat Tobin actually worked with him back in the day) was only several footsteps away doing his own thing, carrying his own convos while watching me flub. Thank goodness the photographer (camera dude) was cool about it all and gave me his critiques..after all he's been a photog for like the past 40 years. lol, if there's one thing I can do RIGHT - is most certainly listen to my elders that know what they're talking about. So that guy certainly um, critiqued me...lol, definitely wasn't feeling JAMtastic.

But I had to step back..this was my SERIOUS reality check. It's most certainly not as easy as it looks and I have a greater respect and appreciation for it. Even though, I've done the sports news on my college radio station, hosted/co-produced/edited my sports show for my college tv station, lol and even most recently - my JAMtastic Blogs... plus I had great people I had to give me some insight like Shelley Smith (ESPN), Bonnie Bernstein (CBS sports) and some anchors/reporters from knbc and teleumundo sports, and writers/producers...I thought I could handle it since after all I could envision myself doing it, so I could do it.

.......Boy was I wrong and looked like a complete jackhole and embarrassed myself. However, I needed to be mortified and knocked down to drive the point home of what needs to really happen. I was happy with the fact that I was no longer a nerdy intern that wanted to do sports broadcasting, but refused to do a stand-up because I absolutely wasn't 'there'. I feel more comfortable in front of the camera, but from now on I have to be the most glamified from now on - no exceptions to the rule.

Even though it's against what the younger JAM would do, I have to care about my appearance unfortunately. lol, but we'll have some fun with it. So now that I made it into this exclusive party, I have to work my way up. I have the opportunity to learn so much and do so much that the time is now. I can't wait, I can't say, well I'll do that in a couple of months. Before I know it, a couple of months will be a couple of years. I refuse to wait and most importantly, I refuse to lose. So, what's next?

LOL!..well, lets see, I have a hair appointment tomorrow afternoon, then need to figure out a JAMtastic way to keep my hair on point all the time..and invest in one of those thingys called a flat iron..yeah my pockets haven't been able to afford those things, but the time is now. So viva la rasa and seize the day..or better yet, carpe diem ..as the italians say.. 'Goditi il momento'...
So I've got my hair appt...then in a couple of weeks, a JAMtastic photoshoot shall take place, make-up game along with some purchases of some real make-up tools..lol..other than that. It's a new day, it's a new moment..live it or go kick rocks.. lmao.

..but hey look on the bright side, lol when I woke up from my massive nap/bedtime (since my schedule has to be ass backwards).. my good buddy brooke sent this to me..lmao..plus i'm sooo ready for a fantastic friday that happens to be halloween..lmao...

Video from CNNBC: "Obama's Loss Traced To Jameela Hammond"




Since today was pretty hilarious and as my horoscope put it ..I had an 'edu-tainment' kind of day.. I'll occasionally share my progress and my journey to getting to the top..lol as my pocket doesn't reflect such success..lol, we'll all live this together in the jamtastic arena.. hope everyone had a great day. If you're not happy, find something that does and be amazing at it. Whenever you question anything: Let me tell you a moment I had, My mentor, Pat Tobin (R.I.P.) ...before she passed, I saw her at her Tribute Party while she was very sick with her cancer, she was even losing her voice. She looked sick as if she should be at home - - away from the chaos of dealing with people. But she was there, with a smile and in amazingly great spirits. Point is, if a woman like that can smile through her pain and affect others in the most positive light, so can you.....

This woman is an inspiration, motivator, mentor, great friend, and my top supporter. The tribute party was for her and to raise money for her scholarship she created..

make sure to donate:
Pat Tobin Scholarship Fund
4929 Wilshire Blvd., Suite 245
Los Angeles, CA 90010

www.tobinpr.com
L.A. Times gives their respect to Pat: http://articles.latimes.com/2008/jun/11/local/me-tobin11


this was the last time I saw Pat before she passed, June 10th, 2008..which interestingly enough was only a couple of days if not exactly to the date..my grandfather (another influential person in my world) had passed away 10 years ago...

there's something in the air in South OC

Hey Folks,
I know it's been way to long since I've written a blog. And I totally owe a new 'vblog' (lol, that's the cool way of saying video blog). Anyhoot - I wanted to clear up that the case of Bitchassness (or the one I was mainly focused on)..thank goodness was merely a false alarm. lol, lets hope it stays that way.

But speaking of Bitchassness.. I'm here at UCI and Campus MovieFest is unfortunately coming to an end. I had a blast meeting the students and really take a new perspective of looking at the college life, it's students, and all the extra curricular activities that go along with it. So today, was the day for UCI..UC Irvine for those that were stuck on that last letter. And another fantastic fact for those that may not know... I mostly grew up in Garden Grove (the ghetto fabulous part of the OC)..and then went to high school in Irvine (we moved there as well). So I've never really been a FAN per say of the city of Irvine and it's people that consist within it's borderlines of lies. hmm, Where to start. Lets just say, I've had numerous incidents that had fed into my notions of my complete dislike, but I met some outstanding individuals from there. Some I say hello to every once in a while whether it be online (facebook myspace)..or maybe meet up for an event/get together. So coming back to Irvine, I wasn't to stoked as one would put it so gingerly, but I had hopes of it being an evolving experience. You know like the love-hate kinds where once you hated it and now you can respect it. Well I can't really say that.

On my drive down here, that long ass haul is way too symbolic of going over the bridge to go to a bubble of bougy bullshit. I should have seen it, but I wanted to give it a chance, lol since that's what I really have been trying hard on - to give things a fair shot. Well this shot should have been shut for the get-go..lol. I had stopped at 'Peet's Coffee' across the street from UCI since my eyes all of a sudden wanted to be droppy from the ridiculous drive. Seriously, let me just say, the drive (especially on the 405) is just STUPID. It's like driving over a moet to get to a castle when it's just bling from the outside and no substance on the inside. So I was in the coffee place, and the girl started off being nice asking about my Campus MovieFest t-shirt and then was kind of dry with it after that and kind shoved my money back in my hand. Then her fat head boss ended up making my drink and of course put whip when I had specifically asked for it not to be on there. Eh, no biggie..people make human mistakes. Well the man was a bit rude about it, lol when he was the one in the wrong. On top of that, the vibe as soon as I got to this place was just OFF. I wanted to throw rocks at every single person in that joint. lol..but I didn't. Then it was off to good ole bubblicious UCI, I showed up to the Parking structure and the man goes 'What do you want?' with an attitude..lol after he had mumbled it the first time. So as you can see even though I was being a bit sensitive, these folks have been asking - no scratch that..more like demanding for rocks to be thrown at them.

Then I show up to the school, and the students are just as bad. Along with getting rocks thrown at them, they keep swift kick in the face. Definitely not a fan of this city. Republican nation..bougy nation.. need to go kick rocks.

I can't even say because they go to a UC, they're being like this...lol because the kids at UCLA were pretty cool folks. Especially for being approached everyday by some off campus folks, I'd say they're up there with being awesome along side the USC kids. And I can't even say it's the money thing because USC kids typically lets say have no problem paying their tuition. It must be something in the air, something on Cox Communications (their cable provider), the lack of diversity that make these people so off the chain ridiculous.

Well, god speed and the funny part is when these folks try to do the 'Hollywood' thing they get a rude awakening that we ain't in kansas anymore dorothy..lmao... well i guess that's what happens to sheltered kids? eesssh ignorant, yet book smart people really get me man..just doesn't make sense..lol that needs to be a part of the requirements to get into these oh so mighty institutions.

Man, I'm glad I live where I can see a Latino and Asian holding hands and a Black dude and a White dude walking down the other side of the street. F this plesantville in color mess..go to L.A. add to the evolution of your growth, don't feed your ignorance.

Bitchassness is a serious disease and side effect..

As I sit here at Cal Poly Pomona for Campus MovieFest enjoying the candy for my eyeballs...this for some reason has been quite a turn of events of irony. You see, never was a fan of boys younger than me, lol it just was a rule of thumb in my world since most act immature. lol i midiswell get the least immature of the bunch? well through my JAMtastic experiments of dealing with the older male species..lol bitchassness is still alive and kicking..it doesn't matter age..it is ALIVE..and SERIOUSLY needs to be extinct.

......I'm now back at home, I wanted to share this dreadful THING that has plagued certain individuals....


So here is a history lesson and just all around life lesson of bitchassness

Where did the term 'Bitchassness' formulate?


lmao, now what it's original definition is as follows:
Diddy Version


their version


There was a case in particular that I won't call the person out on their shiestyness/wackness..aka..lol, the JAMtastic translation of bitchassness or else I'd be the one with the side effect.

At this point in time, I need to take my own advice..my own words of wisdom and let these bitchasses, get some meds for their prob..or go elsewhere and become extinct from my world. It's taken a while to get it to the JAMtastic world that I want it to be. I truly can't have that infect my world. So while those grown ass adults attempt to get healthy again, I gotta stay focused and do what I was meant to do ..especially with this 2nd chance.

And on that note. Peace be with all of ya'll. I gotta attempt to get some kind of sleep before starting my 2am - 10am shift. lata skatas. :0)

Side note: I appreciate all my true and real friends ..as well as my family and supporters every day. You guys mean so much to me that words will never be able to express. While my world gets complex in it's own ways, you guys continue to stand by my side and you guys add on to the blessing that life has become for me. So thank you. And my word is good when I say we WILL party when JAM gets to that point..love you.

<3
JAM